The past 2 years

Hey, it's been a long time since I have not checked my blog!

My last post was in 2014 and now it's 2016 he he he he

I probably will [reuse] this blog simply to share my stupid x unimportant life or to share my feeling

when you do not have somebody to talk to, a blog is probably a solution to relieve your pain :)

soo.. what did I miss in the past 2 years?

• I was accepted in English Literature, Universitas Indonesia.

Unfortunately, I did not get accepted in medical school so I could not be a dentist although up until now I'm still dreaming.. 

• Since I talked a lot about my ex Kevin, I would say that I got another bf Fiki for only 10 months, and Antoni for approx 2,5 years (he was not my bf, but we were so close like a couple)

Fiki was a very nice person, he treated me like princess. I could say that he loved me that much at that time. But unfortunately it did not last long. From him I learn to stick with someone who love you and do not look for someone who you think is better than your partner, coz remember your partner knows someone that is better than you but he never leave you for other girl ;) 

Antoni was also a nice person, I am very blessed that I was surrounded by people who love me that much :") Antoni was kind of person who did not vividly show he loves you but you can feel his love. He extremely fought for our relationship, but yes it was my fault again who made him finally gave up and sadly I could not do much and our relationship came to an end. 

• I was appointed as AIESEC youth winter ambassador 

So.. I applied for AIESEC program in my university and I got accepted. I was sent to Kosice, Slovakia to teach students in there. I taught them about Indonesian cultures and self development skills. I met lot of people from different countries and it was such an unforgettable moment for me. 

• I joined Model United Nations which is so happening right now

ever heard about MUN? yes in UI it is very hard to actually be part of the club. I'm blessed that I got accepted in my second year in my UNI. 

• I was appointed as UI representative for EUROMUN in Maastricht, Netherlands.

This opportunity only come to those UI MUN Club members. Since I was the member of UI MUN Club, I got a chance to join the simulation and got accepted to represent UI in EUROMUN Competition in Maastricht for 4 days. It was a very tough competition I could say. 

• I won 2 MUN competitions. I finally know something to write in my CV :")

Alhamdulilah... because I was accepted in EUROMUN team, I need to practice for about 5 months or so. As part of the practice, It's obligatory for me to join at least one competition before we are going to the real field (EUROMUN). Thus, I chose Nottingham MUN in Malaysia because I want to practice international MUN field. I was shocked that I won 2nd place :") 

The second MUN competition that I joined was IMASION that held in Jakarta. This is the competition that I joined after EUROMUN. This is not obligatory, but I really feel that I have to win something since I did not have national mun award and I did not win anything in Netherland. Blessed that I won 1st place :") 

• I am about to enter the 7th semester in English Department, oh kill me! 

People say that this semester will be the toughest semester that English Dept students probably will get. I have to deal with academic journal and make a real drama for drama class. Hope I can survive and maintain my gpa. 

I think those are the things that you probably missed for the past 2 years :D

SKYE Restaurant (Review)

If you want to experience a different way to enjoy your meals, I recommend SKYE because of these three reasons.

First, the place view and design are amazing. SKYE is located in BCA tower, floor 56 Central Jakarta. SKYE has two different places to enjoy your meals. You can choose whether you only want to drink or eat dessert in the lounge, or you want to have dinner in the restaurant. The lounge is outdoor and the view is amazing. There is a swimming pool and you can see the city light clearly in the night. On the other hand, the restaurant is indoor, and it is more elegant and well-designed.

Second, The food and the drink are expensive, but it is worth it because the food and the drink are delicious. there are many food and drink that offers in SKYE. the price is varied, but approximately the price for drink is IDR 50.000 and for the main course is IDR 150.000. Even though the price are expensive, but the taste is delicious and very different with other restaurants.

Third, the service is excellent. the waiters are fast respond with every costumers. Therefore, we do not have to wait for a long time for the food. Also, the waiters are nice and always give a smile to the costumers. To sum up, I recommend you to visit SKYE because the place is amazing, the food are delicious, and the service is excellent.

New page, new problem.

okayyy, let's move from the last page. And start with a new life and new problem (indeed!). Hafffttt my life and problems are like stamps and glue which could never be separated. this heart (supposedly) strong enough to hold any problem. but it's just too hard to hold a problem now. Besides my family problem which is getting bad and hmm.. why boy problem never ends. okey, it's gone, bye and thanks. but this heart.. I cannot lie. I just think too much about him. And when this heart try to balancing those two problems, another problem come. Yes that's the best part. The climax. La la la la la ~ I try not to think too much about another one, but the another one force me to think about it too much. So selfish! 

The another one is about my future, actually the university. The time when i should register for admission of new student is so close. I went to Bandung-jakarta-bandung-jakarta just to take tests for medical school. it took a very big efforts so I hope the result won't let my parents and me down. 

hmm... 

I hope that there is someone who I can lean my shoulder on, I hope it's you, but hm... I know it won't happen. it's okay i handle it by my own. 

Fav quote

stay, rihanna

just listen and feel the lyrics

i belong with you

                                                             "You Belong With Me"

You're on the phone with your girlfriend ‒ she's upset,
She's going off about something that you said
'Cause she doesn't get your humor like I do.

I'm in the room ‒ it's a typical Tuesday night.
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like.
And she'll never know your story like I do.

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up and find
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time.

If you could see
That I'm the one
Who understands you.
Been here all along.
So, why can't you see ‒
You belong with me,
You belong with me?

Walking the streets with you in your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be.
Laughing on a park bench thinking to myself,
"Hey, isn't this easy?"

And you've got a smile
That can light up this whole town.
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down.

You say you're fine ‒ I know you better than that.
Hey, what you doing with a girl like that?

Oh, I remember you were driving to my house
In the middle of the night.
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're 'bout to cry.
I know your favorite songs,
And you tell me about your dreams.
Think I know where you belong,
Think I know it's with me.
Can't you see
That I'm the one
Who understands you?
Been here all along.
So, why can't you see 
You belong with me?

Standing by and waiting at your backdoor.
All this time how could you not know, baby 

don't you seeeee?? open your eyes, i'm here, always here waiting for you.

worst feeling

heeey karma welcome to my life, this is me with my useless life. Actually you come to the right person. You remind me about lot of things that i shouldn't do in the past. You can destroy my life because what i've done in the past, but please don't push me down too much. 7 days before national exam, i was given a feeling like this. Feeling sad, soo disappointed, broken, pissed off, and so many worst feeling. I want to do something, really want... but i know i can't.
god forgive me :( show me the right and the best way. is it better to leave or stay? :(