Welcome '13

welcome 2013!!!!!!!!! welcome new year!!!!! I'm gonna be seventeen this year! Yuhuuuu...l'm so excited with 2013!!!! Hope hope hope this year will be my year, pass national exam with a good result, pass UNPAD as my future 'PTN' and learn to be the best communication student there! success for the year book!!!!!! have a best seventeen party ever!! and have a best trip with friends this year! Best boyfriend this yearr{} and soo manyyy wishes.....ahhrrggg i'm so excited with this year! let's hope for the best and be strong to handle any problem :") let's control the situations, and don't let the situation controls you! :)

Old post, 2009

What did you feel if you love someone but it goes to waste? when you start to believe that he was  the only one and you will do everything for him, and the whole expectation that you made together just a full of bullshit, and every single things you have done was just nothing to him? Can you imagine how hurt? i've felt more. You love him, and he said he felt that feeling too, but the reality is different. You still can't come together, "force love", "pity", was one of the reason. But those reasons don't make any sense to you. He can and he should did more if he really love you, but he did nothing, he just let you sad and get bad with this condition, the condition where you are forced to always compliant, be patient, and left behind. But you still love him no matter the condition is.

hey sorry.. it's not because i can't move on but i don't want to.. I know i did the same mistakes twice, and this time was the worse. But am i wrong with this feeling? Am i wrong that i'm fall in love with you? :(  oh god, i just want to love and be loved :(